“If I Die”

What do you mean by “If I die?”

Losing your body, losing your soul, losing your memory or losing my love?

If it is “losing your body”…

It was never mine,

And I am not the person whom you hold in your arms when the night is cold or I am not the one who sleep next to you when you wake up every morning…. And I am not the one who smell your breath every minute ….

Still… you live within me

What do you mean by “If I die?”

If it is “losing your soul”…

You never share your soul with me, 

I am not the soul mate of yours, with whom you experience a love so deep, strong and complex, which u begin to doubt that you have ever truly loved anyone prior – a connection so strong that you are drawn to them in a way you have never experienced before….

Still…  I see you, your soul as crystal clear

What do you mean by “If I die?”

If it is “losing your memory”…

I was never the song you whisper  

I am the always who comes last to your mind… who is forgotten for weeks, being replaced easily, never a priority and the option before the last. .. The one who is never saved in the memory lane… the picture never captured by your mind…

Still… you always in my permanent memory

What do you mean by “If I die?”

If it is “losing my love”…

You never loved me

I never cross your mind, not the first choice or the favorite, not the water you need or the jam you taste…. Not the sun or the moon but the star and the cloud …I am not the beat of your heart or the love of your life….

Still… love you-truly, madly, deeply

So what “if you die?”

Nothing will change or nothing will take you away from me. My mind will hold your memory, my heart will keep the love and faith will let me know where I will meet you again.